Internal Struggle

Caught up in the confusion

That is the game of love

I’ve mastered the art of illusion

He’s all I’ve been thinking of

Trapped behind a façade

Of loving one but not the other

The solution may be flawed

But there’s no chance of love with another

I’ve tried to push away the past

Tried to find the path to happiness

But his love is meant to last

And the feelings I have I just can’t suppress

What’s a girl to do?

When she’s faced with such a choice

Something I never imagined I would go through

I have but only one voice

It’s time now to follow my heart

Do what I feel is right

Go back to the very start

And let his heart and mine unite

One Last Time

Today all I can do
Is think back to the day that I met you

These feelings I have for you won't go away
Through the years, time and memories are what I've had to pay

I'm chasing after something I can't get
And I'm running off of pain and regret

I see you, standing there with me in the end
But whether you see the same, it all depends

I want us to be caught in forever
I want our love to be a lasting endeavor

Can you take this leap of faith with me?
Or will this be my ending plea?

Today I think back to the past
But the promise of tomorrow may bring us together at last

Won't Let You Go

What if I told you
That I just can't let go
What if I told you
That your love is all I've ever known

I've tried so hard
To move on and forget
Not think of what we had
Live through all my regrets

But I can't stand
Not being with you
The force is just too strong
My heart pleads for a passion so true

The fire of desire
Will continue to burn
Yet I must hold back
A new path I must learn

A Boy in Shambles

A boy whose soul is lost and confused
Cannot reach out for what he needs
His smile is broken
His heart, shattered and full of greed

A light that leads us all
Has only flickered, and now died in his eyes
No matter how much we try to restore the love we know is there
We are met with fear and anger, and ask ourselves why

We take for granted
Our sources of love and inspiration
But as we try to get him back on his feet
Our everlasting patience soon hits its expiration

May he remember
That though his problems may come down on him
His friends shall be there to pick him up
And make the work to get up a little less grim

Tell Me

Tell me I'm dreamin
Tell me I have it all wrong
Tell me my eyes deceive me
Tell me to stop thinking what I've thought for so long

I can't go on
Not knowing if this love is true
Let me know if what you feel is real
Give me that final clue

I need to know
If I should start down a different road
Or if I can count on this love
Let all the walls erode

Come to me
Tell me you're there
And here will start a new beginning
"Love has arrived" I will declare

A World of Hurt

I'm tired of being shut down
Pushed around and shoved out
I need to know why you treat me this way
I want to know what this is all about

You yell and you scream
Until the walls cave in
The pain you deliver is so great
Makes my head spin

Do I really deserve
The harsh reality that seems to be thrown in my face
The cuts and bruises on my heart
Have replaced your warm embrace

It's easy
To confront my friends with a smile
Meanwhile in this dark pit
I'll wonder if my life is worthwhile

It seems that day after day
The battles I fight are the same
The effects on me are endless
Yet you think its pointless, you claim

Sometimes I wonder if I drifted off into a cloud
Would my problems all go away
Or will my life be characterized
By fear and disarray

I wish someone would just whisk me away
Show me the way to peace
Allow me to open up and help me show
That there is love that is eager to be released

Losing You

I've made a lot of mistakes
That have gotten me to this place
Lines of past experiences
Are worn upon my face

But the biggest mistake yet
Has been losing you
And so it becomes my pain
My happy days are now few

Though my feelings were strong
That did not keep me from seeing the worst
Your neglect was
Your greatest curse

If you had only told me
Saved me from this ominous end
I might still have you
Our love we could extend

You will forever be
A page in the story of my life
And a man like you
I will always strive to find